Monday, September 29, 2008

Red Rover Red Rover Send My Bestfriend Right Over!

I'm in an awkward situation. Could use some advice.

Tiffany, BFF
Aaron, Calvin's Dad
Tonya, Aaron's new girlfriend and Tiffany's 1st cousin and friend.

Okay, if you just read about the characters you can probably already spot the dilema. Tiffany is my best friend. We tell each other like everything. When I need to gripe, she listens and vice versa. That's what BFFs do, right? Well, she is also friends with Aaron. This has never ever been a problem because Aaron and I have always kept a friendship because that's important to raising Calvin. Well, Aaron has a new girlfriend. Her name is Tonya. I've known her for years. Great girl... I mean, I've partied w/ her a few times and I know her through Tiffany. They are 1st cousins and have been close since childhood.

Aaron apparently started dating Tonya a couple months ago... like June... I asked him about the situation out of curiosity 2 weeks ago and he said they were just friends... until last week when he finally admitted it. I don't know why he tried to hide it from me. I try to keep a pretty open relationship with him where we can talk about anything. Anyway, I pointed out the obvious that I don't know if she's step-mom material for Calvin. And, I stressed the importance of waiting until things are much more serious before introducing Calvin to her. He understood. Calvin has been talking about JenJen (Aaron's girlfriend of 3 years) a lot lately. He's 3... he's smart... he doesn't need to get attached to another girlfriend and be confused when it doesn't work out.

I know I'm being overprotective of Calvin. But, I'm his mom... that's my job.

I feel like Chris and I always put Calvin first in our lives. I knew from the start that Chris would be a good father figure to Calvin. If he wouldn't have met the standards we sure as heck wouldn't be married. I guess I sometimes wonder where Aaron's priorities are. Let me point out that he really is a good dad to Calvin. He gets him on Wednesday evenings and a night/day on the weekend. I mean, that's not every day, but I wouldn't expect that. Anyway, I know dads are different than moms. But, I wonder if Aaron even thinks about how his new girlfriend will be to Calvin in the future. I said earlier that I like her... but I like her as a party girl/bartender/shopper. I don't really know her on a serious level. Never seen her stability, mature, responsible sides - but I am not going to say she doesn't have one. I just don't know of it.

Also, now Aaron has bought a dog. Not just any dog... but 1/2 rotweiler (sp) and 1/2 pitbull. I'm not a dog lover and don't pretend to be. But, I don't know that this dog is a wise choice since there's a 3 year old boy involved. I don't know... maybe the dog will be great. But right now I'm paranoid. I am a vicious person when you mess with Calvin... and I would seriously hurt someone if that dog hurt him. Let me refocus... again, I'm worried that his priorities aren't where I think they should be. But, I can't change a person. I'm a control freak - so this isn't an easy concept for me.

So, let me get back to the whole point of this post...

Tiffany is somewhat stuck in the middle. I've called to vent to her a couple times and I don't get the full feedback like usual. I understand because she's Tonya's cousin and friend. I couldn't really expect her to choose sides and stick by me when I'm upset. It's not like there is really drama between me and Aaron, but sometimes I just gotta vent to someone about something ridiculous that isn't worth making a big deal about... and I have always vented to her. Now I'm frustrated because I am losing my personal life coach, shrink, and go to for everything. I feel like this situation will come between us even more in the future. Ugh... it's like I can see the big Tiffany-Christina break-up before it happens.

I will seriously be angry if I lose my BFF and Aaron and Tonya don't work out.

Advice? Suggestions? Becoming less of a control-freak is not good advice for me - I can't help it. Other than that... help?

5...4...3...2...1... TEST TIME

Programming Logic 4 chapter test starts in THREE MINUTES!
I sooo don't get this stuff! It's sooo over my head!

Yes, you are right - I should be studying instead of blogging about it... I'm on overload right now. Wish me luck!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Cooper's 1st Birthday!

Precious baby Cooper turned 1 this week. He is growing so fast and learning all sorts of new things. I can't believe it's been a year already!!!

Today was his BIG PARTY at the park! Coop got literally tons of toys! He is loved by sooo many people and they all showed it with some pretty cool gifts! I'd say the best part of the party was when Cooper dug into his cake... sooo cute.

Precious Baby Cooper,
As you turn 1, we want to take some time to tell you how special you are to us. We enjoy watching you grow into a handsome little toddler. It is amazing to watch you in wonderment as you learn new things. Your vocabulary and facial expressions change each day. Soon, you will be walking and talking all of the time. It's obvious already that you enjoy playing with your tractors. We look forward to the days when Calvin teaches you how to play soccer and how to sneak chocolate when your mom's not watching. We can't wait for the slumber parties at our house!
You truly are a blessing in our lives. We love you and think of you daily. You really couldn't be more loved.

Uncle Chris, Aunt Christina, and Calvin

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Blog Makeover For You...

My Blogger Pal, Shauna from Blah Blah Blog is giving away a BLOG MAKEOVER!
I am sooo serious!
I know there are a few of you that have been dying for a makeover to look like pro-bloggers... so enter to win! Click to enter! 

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I Said, "Fabulous"

Today was my favorite day that occurs every 6-8 weeks: 

Cut & Color Day! 

There wasn't any cutting since last week Bridget cut out all of the ruined hair from my hair-color-do-it-yourself fiasco.  I learned my lesson... never again will I color my own hair! 
As requested, Bridget ,the Wonder-Beautician, colored my hair a darker brown.  It's getting cooler outside and I like to go darker in the Winter.  Seriously, my hair color turned out even better than I'd hoped for!  I am sooo happy with it!  Before I left, I took another look in the mirror and told Bridget, "I look fabulous!"  Then, I paused and said, "This is like the only place I'm allowed to say I look fabulous without sounding conceited."  We decided that it was blog worthy... and I'm posting it... for all of the world to read... "I look fabulous today!"  Must give major credit to Bridget for her magic like hair skills that got me an awesome color and her round brush technique that got me lots oh' lots of volume. 

If you're feeling not so fabulous and you want a pick-me-up... schedule an appointment with Bridget at the French Quarter:  217.347.3435.  :-)

Vice Presidential Debate

Fellow Sarah Palin Supporters...

Calvin and I will be heading to Washington University in St. Louis next week Thursday, October 2nd for the Vice Presidential Debate. All tickets for the debate are sold to the students. Like I did in the 2004 election with my cousin Doug, I will be going to stand on the streets of the campus along with lots and lots of other politic-junkies to show my support. Of course Calvin is going, too. He wouldn't miss it!

So, if you're a Sarah Palin supporter and want to go with us leave me a comment or send me an email. I'll probably take off around 5:00ish and maybe get dinner before the debate. The debate starts at 8:00. Tiffany, I expect to meet up with you! Do you want me to make you a Sarah Palin shirt for the occassion? Why did I even ask... I'm making you one no matter what! :-)
Billi would you and the boys be interested in going? Louis and Calvin could wear their new shirts!
Wendy, if Caleb doesn't have a game do you guys want to go?

I know that we won't really get to see the candidates or even the debate. Being there is just something exciting to me. In 2004, I loved how pumped up everyone was!

What Do I Do, Now???

Yesterday I weighed myself at Aunt Dawn's. 
I do this like everytime I'm there... because remember, I just can't have a scale at home. 
Anyway... BIG NEWS... or rather SMALLER NEWS: 
I'm not going to throw any numbers out there... because well, I don't want to be ridiculed.  But, I just wanted to let all of my readers know that I am finally at what used to be my normal weight... and I am sooo happy! It has been my goal for several months.  Maybe it's my new obsession with Cheesy Poofs or all of the Nerds I've been scarfing down... I don't know... I don't care!  I lost the weight - and I look so much better!!!  I feel so much better about my appearance, too!   

Honestly, I have never met a weight goal in my life.  Everytime I came close to reaching it, I'd lower the number to keep me going - you all remember the post about my weight challenges.  But, this is it... I think...
So, what do you do after you reach your goal weight???

I know some of you have been dieting or exercising.  Some of you on Weight Watchers.  How are you guys doing with the Battle of the Bulge?

He Loves Me! He Really Loves Me!!!

My sweet baby Calvin really loves me. Just minutes ago I stopped by his daycare play yard to say hi. This is a pretty regular thing. We said our good-byes so I could head to the lab to work on some sites. I could tell something just wasn't right with Calvin. His bottom lip started to trimble as he fought back the tears. Finally, he lost the battle and big alligator tears streamed down his face. I went inside the yard and held him for several minutes and tried to console him. I know... some of you pro-mom's would say I should have just walked away in the beginning. But, I just couldn't. Calvin is getting so grown-up. He doesn't cry when I leave him like he used to. In the mornings I get a "Bye Mom!" and a quick hug and kiss before he skips off to play with his friends. It makes me happy that he enjoys school so much.

But, I can't lie...
I silently smiled on the inside that he still loves me so much that he wanted to leave his friends to spend an afternoon at home with me. I know in the years to come, I will not be as hip to him as I am now. Someday, he will go off to college and have a life of his own. So, I am enjoying this moment where my precious baby didn't want me to leave him.
I am sure that by now, he is long past the tears and playing with his friends again. And that makes me happy, too.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Ugh... Layout issues...

So, this layout w/ black/purple diamonds/and a flower on the left is something I designed today. No, the graphics are not my own... I'm not that good, yet. ;-) Anyway, I see that my header isn't centered - ugh... but that's minor compared to the white columns on the right and left if your screen is maximized. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm sure it's probably some silly little setting and with a click of a button and a few keystrokes it would be fixed. But, I just don't know how to do it... and Google was no help. Ok... maybe it wasn't Google... I think I'm a bad Googler... like I don't type the right stuff. Anyway, until I figure it out... it's gonna look like this. Any help would be GREATLY appreciated! :-)

Tots For McCain & Palin

Tonight I whipped up a couple shirts for Louis and Calvin. 
Since Louis's Mommy and Daddy are big McCain supporters, I knew they'd love the shirt! 


Working on my own layout - (must say here that they are not my own graphics). I can't get it to resize correctly - so now it is repeated and looks stupid if your screen is maximized. Now, my computer is running slow - Dina's tired. So, I'm gonna take a break. I'll work on it again this afternoon. Thanks for being patient.

Sunday, September 21, 2008


Life gettin' ya down? Had a bad day? Need a good laugh?

Look no further!

Wendy, Dawn, and I went to see this hilarious comedy Friday night. I seriously laughed so hard my stomach hurt! I gotta throw in a note here that there is a lot of mature/sexual language and guestures in the movie... in a funny way... better than an American Pie way. Funniest movie I've seen in a long time!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Up thinking...

I'm up thinking and looking at my stupid computer screen talking to the picture of my dad in his CCX jacket on the right panel. I like that picture... it was my Dad... how he typically looked... and how he typically smelled, if pictures came with scent. I miss his smell. I can't put a finger on what it was - maybe a mixture of Skoal and a semi - I don't know. But, it was my Dad. I can't find that exact smell anywhere. I've searched high and low - even have his last chew can... and that's not the right smell.

In the first couple months that passed after Dad's terrible accident, I begged him to come to me in a dream. But, he didn't. Everyone said he would come to my dreams with time. I imagined these dreams to be magical, heaven-like. Well, a couple weeks or so ago I started dreaming about my Dad. Not to much surprise to me, he hasn't changed... in my dreams he is just like he used to be: debatable, argumentative, and questioning my every decision. That was Dad. Although I can never remember all of the details in my dreams with Dad, I always wake-up feeling like I saw, heard, and smelled him. I'd give anything to have these disagreements with him in real life. I miss arguing with him... I know that sounds weird... and I don't mean it in a bad way at all... just how we were - but no matter what, we always knew we'd love each other the next day. :-)

So, I'm sitting here... still talking Dad... now sobbing and getting muscle spasms in my back and my right eye is twitching from being so upset. I miss him so much. Words cannot describe the emptiness I feel in the void of my soul that was left when Dad passed away.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

The Name Game

Calvin goes to a new daycare. New daycare = new friends = new names to learn. Up until yesterday, when asked his friends' names he would say, "They no got names!"

I said something to his teachers because I want him to learn his new friends' names. They started singing a song to learn names. I don't know the song. Calvin only remembers a fraction of it - something like, "My friends are here! Hip! Hip!" It's really cute when he randomly busts out in tune. :-)

Yesterday he started talking about a friend at school named Toby or Tony. I couldn't understand. He got so frustrated with me each time I tried to play his Name Game. He would get so mad he'd say, "You go to my school and I will show you! UGH!"

Tonight I made a final attempt at the Name Game. He insists that his new friend's name is Toadie! Toadie??? Seriously. I repeated it several times... and it is Toadie - not Toddy, Toby, or Tony... it is Toadie. Either Calvin is all kinds of confused or this poor child has been cursed with a super-weird name! I'll make sure to check it all out on Friday! I want to meet this Toadie fellow - or whatever his name is. Calvin seems to really like playing with him. :-)

Big Blogger Welcome

Let's give Tina a Great Big Blogger Welcome!
She has joined the up and coming virtual society that we refer to as Blog. :-)
I am eager to read her funny mom-tales!


Check her out at My Life As Tina

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Family Soccer Star

I want to take a moment to tell you all how AWESOME my nephew, Caleb, is at soccer! He puts his heart, soul, and literally his whole body into the game. It's exciting to watch him out on the field with his head in the game and his feet on the ball. We are pumped up for the rest of soccer season and especially his upcoming travelling soccer team games.

I am sure I speak for all of Caleb's Fan Club when I say that we couldn't be prouder of him!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Dad #1, Stinky #2, Mom #3

I couldn't sleep last night. A little after 3:00 I decided to lay down. Since the remote for the bedroom t.v. is on the out, I layed on the couch. Tossed, turned, watched t.v., ate chocolate chips... then here came Mr. Calvin to keep me company. We stayed up until nearly 5:00 a.m. laughing, making jokes, and talking about how much he is loved. Although it was late... it didn't matter. Time did not matter for those short hours where I soaked up every precious thing he did and said.

I thought we were BFF's. I was wrong. He clearly let it be known that Dad is his #1 Best Friend. I asked if I was #2... No... that spot's reserved for Stinky. At least I'm #3! I guess that's better than number #346... but I want to be #1!


Check out my new header! I did it! Sorry for sounding full of myself... but I'm proud that with a big help getting started from Amber L, I learned a lot about Photoshop!

Now... if I could just figure out how to make my whole blog layout... I have some ideas... just need a place to start.

Anyway... this is enough playing around for the day. Have to do homework!

Sunday, September 14, 2008


Amber Lindeman Saved The Day!

She walked me through every step to get the digital scrapbooking desktop background done!



My project isn't 100% perfect - partly because I'm no pro at this (yet). And the other part because this background is all one template. So, I couldn't move the buttons. Some day I'll figure all of that out. I'm happy for now - thanks to AMBER!

Help, Please!!!

I am trying to get into digital scrapbooking.
I have Photoshop CS3 to do this in.
However, I don't have a clue how to use it!

I found this SUPER CUTE desktop layout at She has pictures put where there are whites above. Get the picture? Well... I literally can't get pictures in there. I've been working on this for like 3 hours. Googled and Googled and Googled... it's like they're speaking a different language.


Any help is appreciated! THANKS!!!


Some people have been asking about my lack of posts last week. I guess I didn't have much to write about and felt uninspired. There's lots going on here. But, the big part is something I can't blog about for security reasons. Just know that things are going pretty good here.


Bridget is Going to Kill Me!

Bridget, my beautician, is going to kills me!
Friday night I got tired of my hair color.
I knew I was going to have to reschedule my appointment w/ her on Thursday because of work.
So... I colored it myself.
I am not a professional.
I decided to go darker.
Dark part... not so bad.
Then, I put some blonde highlights in it...
I fried my hair!
Seriously, I have some blond hair that looks like elastic breaking off!
I am going in on Thursday, unless she gets me in sooner, to get my hair trimmed.
I think that will help.
In the meantime I will continue to deep condition daily.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Rehydrate McCain Style

Where oh where
n I get me some of this water???


Meghan McCain has these pictured on her blog along with pics and tales from the campaign trail. Special thanks to Billi for introducing me to Meghan's blog! :-)

Friday, September 5, 2008

I'm that mom

* I am that mom that presses snooze 3 times to get as many Zzz's as possible.

* I am that mom that cannot rush her shower no matter how late she is running. My day would be all out of whack if I didn't get my legs shaved in the A.M.

* I am that mom that will rush around like a mad woman to get out the door no earlier than 10 minutes late.

* I am that mom that sets an alarm an extra 10-15 minutes early each morning because I know I will be running late... just to take those extra minutes into consideration when I hit the snooze button the 3rd time!

* I am that mom that is running late and low on groceries so I stop at the gas station on the way to school to get me and the kiddo a pack of Hostess donuts, 2 packs of Chewy Sprees, and an Extra Sweet Tea for breakfast!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

What A Speech...

I'm not going to ramble on and on about my support for the McCain Palin campaign. 
You all know I support them. 
However, wasn't Sarah's speech awesome last night?!? 
I was glued to the t.v. 
I loved the speech! 
I was practically clapping from my bed! 
Of course this morning when I turned on The View - Whoopi was overanazlyzing Sarah Palin's speech... I'm sure that's just the beginning of the press that will twist and turn words into something they weren't.  Oh well, I watched, I listened, and I support her.  The press will not change my mind. 
Governor Palin cares about the people - more than looking good for the cameras, playing the lobbyists against each other, or turning this campaign into a story out of the National Enquirer. 
I want to give Obama some kudos - where they are due.  He is wonderful at giving speeches.  They are very inspirational.  Quite fankly, his calling in life is probably as a motivational speaker. 
However... a speech has to be more than motivational.  We, the citizens of the United States of America, deserve a President that has more than empty promises for an idealized world.  It's not that easy to get votes.  I see right through him. 

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Prozac Cocktails!

My besties, Dawn and Tiffany, and I are
going to the Nut House together!!!

You can't stop us...

We've made a pact... when I go... they're going, too!

We're going to make crazy the new cool!

Prozac Cocktails Here We Come!

I love you girls! Thanks for the support!