Monday, April 28, 2008

"Sending Smiles"

Saturday night I got a few fabulous cards from Billi. Incase you haven't heard, she is the mastermind behind Walnut Street Cards in Teutopolis. You can find her handmade cards in several local stores in the Effingham/Teutopolis area such as Wessel's and Weber's.
Check out her website: www.walnutstreetcards.com
You can order online - find a store - or for more personalized cards work with Billi to design the right card for your needs.
She designed and made our wedding invitations. They were gorgeous!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Quazepam

What a weekend... really, what a weekend! Busy busy busy!
Here's a recap:


FRIDAY: After school me and Calvin packed the car and headed to Tom and Susan's (Chris's parents) for the weekend. All 3 of us were excited to have a weekend back home. Soon after we got there, Tom got a phone call from Matt (Chris's brother). Matt, Wendy, and Caleb were stranded alongside the road after their truck broke down... on their way to a Cardinal's game! Ugh... So, we quickly ate and then Tom and Chris left in a Super-Hero, Ordner-like fashion to help Matt get their truck back to Effy.
Calvin and I headed to Dawn & Weldon's house... we love those guys! I was very much in need of some Dawn time. I miss her! Calvin and Daelyn were ready to see each other, too. Too bad we got there too late to see baby Weldon before he went to bed. :-(
Afterwards we headed back to Tom & Susan's and got to spend some time with Bill and Elizabeth. By the way HUGE thank-you to Bill, Elizabeth, Matt, Wendy, Cole, and Alicia for the new pans! They are awesome... right, Bill? He's the new cookware know-all in the fam. :-)
SATURDAY: In the morning Chris went to work (until noon) so Calvin and I went to Grandma & Grandpa's. Not sure if they even noticed me... they were all hugs and kisses with the Calvster! Just kidding... they obviously knew I was there since Calvin can't drive himself! hehehe.
That evening we met up w/ Matt, Wendy, and Caleb for dinner and then to Homewood Grill for some ice cream! "Deeewicious!" Then, we headed to their house to check out Caleb's new bedroom and game room. Matt and Wendy did a fantabulous job! Looks straight out of TLC or HGTV!
After we left their house we stopped by Billi and Aaron's. Baby Noah is so precious! Cute. Cute. Cute! Calvin and Louis were excited to see each other. And, I think Chris was ready to have a beer w/ Aaron! Billi and I got to catch up on news.


SUNDAY: Today's Sunday... it was a busy day. My mom had to work so we went to see her at work and enjoyed some brunch there. Yumm-O. The rest of the day... well, more info on that stuff in upcoming weeks. We did get to see Grandma & Grandpa Probst again today. Spending time with them is so refreshing. They are just two of the most special people I have ever met. Apparently Calvin thinks so too because he has taken a special liking for Grandpa. :-)
Tonight when we got home I went straight to work on my Chemistry project. It's due tomorrow. Devon (Chem partner) and I started it on Friday. He did his fair share of the research on the drug we have to present: Quazepam... it's for insomnia if you're curious... usually prescibed as Doral. So, I did a little research and then put it all together... I think it looks pretty sharp. I just hope it has enough technical-chemistry-mumbo-jumbo to get the grade!





And last but certainly not least... this is quite possibly the funniest part of our weekend!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Bye-bye Carly...

America, I think you got it wrong this week! Carly Smithson totally rocks - we all know it - we all love her. Why oh why did she get sent home?!? Why couldn't Brooke White who couldn't remember her lyrics or Jason Castro who looks like he's too stoned to remember his performances go home???
I will miss Carly's spunk. Her talent will get her far in life. I expect to hear her songs on the radio someday soon.

Bike Ride

Calvin and I went for a bike ride this afternoon. We rode to Jarlings for some ice cream. Most of the ride was good. But, when we got on Kirby and there were all of those big fast cars I got a little freaked out. We had to cross Kirby to go to IGA to get some cash. Then cross back over Kirby to get to Jarling's for ice cream. Scary!
Calvin loved his ice cream - chocolate of course! I thought I ordered the equivalent of a lemon slush from Homewood Grill. But, I ended up with some lemon custard thing that did not taste very good. I'm looking forward to going to Homewood Grill Saturday night!!!
On our way back we almost got hit by a car that almost got hit by another car. All the while, Calvin was giggling in his seat... enjoying every minute of it! :-) He wanted me to honk my bike horn like every 2 seconds!
I rode probably close to 2 miles. That was enough for me today - having a 2 year old on back makes biking a lot of work! We came across some mowers on our way back and that triggered a sneeze reaction. Ugh... Now, I feel yucky.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

An Early Mother's Day Gift

The Short Story:

Chris and Calvn got me a bicycle for Mother's Day! Calvin has a seat on back to ride in!!! I am sooo excited. :-)

The Long Story:


On Sunday, Chris and Calvin headed to Wal-Mart to get me some allergy medicine. On the way, Calvin told Chris to buy me a bike (we have been looking at them - and Calvin knew it). So, that is what they did! Calvin came upstairs to give me a bicycle horn!!! I was in shock! I did not expect a bike. I thought the reason they took so long was because they went out for ice cream. So, we headed down to the parking lot to see my new beautiful bike.


Chris got me the bike that I practically drooled over at Wal-Mart. It was a red and white Schwinn cruiser with fenders and a rack on the back.



If possible, I think Calvin was more excited about the bike than I was! We didn't have a seat for him, yet so he chased me around the parking lot for a few minutes. I didn't get to play for long. My allergies started acting up and soon I had to get back inside.


On Monday afternoon, Calvin and I picked up a child carrier for the bike. He also got to pick out his very own helmet... Elmo of course! We went home and patiently waited for Chris to get home so he could attach the carrier to my bike. We coudn't wait to go on our 1st bike ride!!!


As soon as Chris got home he started working on the child seat. About an hour later he finally said that it wouldn't work. So, I took the seat back to Wal-Mart to exchage it for a different one that mounted differently. Chris called while I was at Wal-Mart in Champaign. He wanted to exchange my bike for a different one of the same model because my bike had a bent rim.


As soon as I got home, Chris loaded up the bike in my car and headed to Savoy's Wal-Mart. He called about 30 minutes later because they didn't have another bike like mine. He said that Savoy Wal-Mart called Champaign's Wal-Mart and they didn't have one either. I knew better... I was just there and saw "my" bike. So, I called Champaign Wal-Mart and was put on hold for seriously over 7 minutes. Poor customer service really infuriates me! I hung up and when I called back I wasn't near as pleasant. This time I wouldn't let the lady just put me on hold. I insisted that she put someone else on the phone immediately or walk back to the bikes and look for herself. Then, she got Dan on the phone. He was wonderful and quickly told me that yes they had my bike. Thank-you Dan!!!


I called Chris back. He was already almost to Champaign Wal-Mart. He called about 20-30 minutes later to tell me that he would have to assemble the bike himself because the one they had wasn't assembled correctly. Great. It was 9:30 p.m. Calvin and I weren't going on a bike ride after all.


So, my very handy husband quickly assembled the bicycle like a professional. I was quite impressed! The tires were flat so I headed to Wal-Mart again to get a pump.


I had already started to assemble the child seat so it was ready for him to attach it to the bike. By 11:30 p.m. Chris was sure that there was no way this or probably any child seat would fit on this bike because of the rack on the back. The rack came pre-attached to another part of the bike. He tried to remove the rack but it was screwed on too tightly and was stripping when he tried to unscrew it.


We went to bed - leaving the mess. Maybe tomorrow it will work.


Today came. Calvin asked repeatedly to go on a bike ride. I explained that the bike was broke. Chris came home - still the bike would not work with this seat. So, we returned the bike.


We looked at Wal-Mart, Meijer, and Target before finding a good bike that I liked at Toys R Us. It's a cute champagne/gold and ivory cruiser. It's exactly what I had been wanting: simple, no gears, regular brakes, and a cushy seat!


It didn't take long for Chris to get Calvin's seat attached. The 3 of us headed outside (Calvin in Elmo pj's bc it was almost 9:30). My new bike is fabulous. Calvin loves it! We only rode it around the parking lot tonight since it was dark and late. Tomorrow afternoon (allergies permitting) we will go for a long ride... maybe to get some ice cream!

BIG THANK-YOU TO MY SUPER STUDLY HUSBAND AND MY SUPER HERO SON FOR THEIR SUPER-DUPER EARLY MOTHER'S DAY PRESENT! IT IS PERFECT! THANK-YOU SOOOO MUCH! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Baby News


My cousin Stacy and her husband Matt Burgener just announced that they are expecting their second baby December 1st. :-)

Lain is going to be a BIG brother!!!
We are so happy for the Burgener's!


I told Calvin the big news. He was happy, but I'm not sure it was for the right reasons. He thinks that since Lain is getting a baby brother or sister, so is he! But, Calvin doesn't want a brother... just a baby sister. :-)

Baby Boy!

Billi & Aaron Jansen are the proud parents of the adorable
NOAH AARON JANSEN
He was born April 12th.
What a cutie!
Congratulations to Billi and Aaron
and especially to Louis - he's the BIG brother!



AGAIN?!?

It's 12:41 A.M... I'm awake. Couldn't sleep. I think we just had another earthquake... Did anyone else feel it?!? Maybe I'm just over-medicated on allergy meds and so sleepy but just can't sleep... Maybe I imagined it...
But, I think it was for real.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

It's Allergy Season!

Today must be the official 1st day of Allergy Season!
You know, the season that stretches from the
budding of trees in the Spring to the 1st freeze in late Fall!!!
This afternoon the pollen really started to take an affect on me... Let me give you a visual: My nose turned a raw red from wiping it so much, my cheeks got puffy, and my right eye started to swell shut.
I looked like something out of an alien horror film.

God bless my husband!
He couldn't bear to see me in anymore pain. He shut all of the windows and turned on the air conditioner. And now, Chris and Calvin are out buying me more medicine!
I think their little trip also involves stopping for ice cream. :-)
I may have to make a special trip to Effingham to see Dr. Ames... she's a miracle worker... she helped me build a defense against pollen last year.
My thoughts go out to all of the other allergy-sufferers out there!
Hang in there! :-)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Update on the BIG paper


So, I have been working on my BIG research paper for Eng. 102 for about a month. I've read books, searched for articles, created outlines upon outlines, wrote a prospectus paper, and... wrote a full rough draft that was due yesterday.
I wrote just over 10 pages about parenting in the 21st century. My focus was to talk about how parenting has evolved and the new resources and concerns parents today have. Well... apparently my professor didn't like that. Why in the world she didn't tell me weeks ago when I turned in a prospectus paper is a mystery to me! She wants me to focus on discipline. Okay... that wouldn't have been a problem weeks ago... but now, I have less than a week to do lots of research and remodel my paper to direct some of my thoughts in the way she wants.
Basically, at the end of the meeting with her, she had cut out about 3 pages of my paper because she didn't feel that talking about childhood disorders that are more popular today than decades ago such as autism and ADHD were relevant and she doesn't think I should discuss child safety laws that are enforced today.
After going through my works cited list, she decided that since she wanted me to work on focusing on discipline that at least 3 of my sources weren't needed anymore. Great. Glad I read/skimmed those books!

So, right now I'm just frustrated. I worked hard on this paper. It was very well written. I knew she'd probably have suggestions for me and I needed to add a few opposing views, but I had no idea she would practically scrap my paper and have me start over. :-(

Friday, April 18, 2008

Magnitude

Well, WCIA just confirmed that the earthquake was a 5.4 on the Richter Scale and the epicenter was near Olney, IL. So, I'm sure it was felt much stronger in Newton and Effingham than here. Everyone okay down there?!?
The earthquake was felt in Northern Indiana, through Illinois, and all the way down to Paducah, KY!

So, the News Does Care...

Alright, the news does care that I was woke-up at like 4:40 a.m!
It has been confirmed that there was an earthquake. The news said that tremors were felt as far south as Newton (can I get some confirmation on that from my Newtonites!) and as far north as northern Indiana.
I'll update later with the magnitude of the earthquake. I know it was fairly small, but I hope everyone is okay.

What's Going On?!?

First: It's 4:53 A.M! I should be sleeping!
Just minutes ago Chris and I were awaken from our sleep by our bed and dresser shaking! It all happened so fast, but seemed to take forever. Does that make sense?
We both sat up in bed completely freaked out.
Anyway, we have no idea what happened. Was it an earthquake? Chris mentioned something about an air pressure change. I don't know. And obviously the news doesn't care too much because nothing is on about it. I know... it's not like it was a 10.0 on the Richter Scale... but it was significant to wake us up!
So, I'm awake now. Great.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

American Idol

WOW! Just finished watching American Idol...
DAVID COOK
was on fire!
He sang "You'll Always Be My Baby" by Mariah Carey...
only it was David Cook style.

WOW! Amazing! Yummo!
FIERCE!


I'd always be his baby! Oh yeah... ;-)

CLOSED?!?

Does anyone know if Hoelscher's Bike Shop in Effingham off of Temple is closed?

Yesterday, I was there a like 1:10 p.m. Their sign clearly says that they're closed from noon to one. The sign also said that they were still Closed and the doors were locked with the lights on inside... okay, no biggie - thought they might be taking a long/late lunch. So, I went to Subway and grabbed some lunch. I was back to Hoelscher's by 1:30. Same thing - closed. Yet again around 4 p.m. I tried... no change. Then, I drove by Bike and Hike downtown... they were closed, too!
If I would have known that both places were going to be closed all day or forever or whatever, I would have tried to get to Olney yesterday to look at bikes.

So, do you know if they're closed for good? Or, what's the deal?
Chris really misses mowing the lawn.
Our condo in Champaign has no yard... :-(
So, last night at Grandma Mary's he got the lawnmower out.
He said it was for maintenance reasons...
I think he just wanted to cruise around on it with Calvin!

Chris and Calvin can't wait for boating season!
They got a head-start by playing in the boat in the shed!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

What Do You Do On Sundays?

So, what do you do on Sundays?
We normally hang out at home and relax (church? We go Saturday night). Gloomy Sundays, such as today, are usually spent laying on the couch and watching movies.
Today was a little special. My grandparents and sister drove up for the afternoon. It was nice. We made them a nice dinner and then... grandma asked the question I would have bet a million dollars she would ask, "Can Calvin just come home with us tonight?"
Since I have to drive down there tomorrow anyway, I agreed. You would have thought Santa Claus was coming again by Calvin's reaction. He was so excited. So, we packed his bag and away they went.
So, what were Chris and I going to do the rest of the evening???
I convinced Chris to go bike shopping with me. I've wanted a bicycle for a couple years. And, Sarah completely inspired me to get off my butt and go out bike riding. Well, Chris was only convinced to go and look at bikes... not to buy one... and unfortunately he stuck to his guns. Grrr... rationality sucks! But, maybe it was a good thing because I know what kind of bike I want and can see it in my head. Somehow, in my mind, the bike has to be perfect - to go along with my perfect bike-riding fantasy... that in reality, won't exist... I'm clumsy and will have a 2 year old on back...
And, I didn't find the perfect bike today. I am going to Hoelscher's in Effingham tomorrow to check out their selection. :-) Of course, this doesn't mean I can get a bicycle right away... it's supposed to be my Mother's Day gift... so no idea when or if I'll get one... but I'm hoping!!!
BUT, looking at bikes was fun. Something so kid-like. Remember when you got a bike for a birthday or Christmas? Remember that magical feeling? I kind of felt that today. It was refreshing. Chris and I also took test-rides around the toy departments at several stores... and never got in trouble! hehehe... :-)

Friday, April 11, 2008

Christina's Struggle...

Yesterday I read a blog from a woman that discussed her hate over her obsession wither her scale. Then, today after English class I was talking with a student about her big research paper subject: Eating disorders. As we walked to our cars I went on and on about eating disorders... and got me thinking that I'd use my blog to talk about my challenges over the years with eating disorders and an obsession with my weight. This isn't a pity party or anything anyone should feel sorry for me over. It is something I did to myself... here is my story.

My eighth grade year was very hard for me. I had so many emotions, hormones, confusion, boys, etc. I lived with my father and stepmother. He worked so often, I rarely got to see him for more than a few minutes a day. Adolescence is a tricky time, especially for girls. Often, I didn't feel like I had anyone to talk to about what I was going through. I thought maybe I was different than everyone else - they were normal. I only saw my mother every other weekend and our phone calls were limited between visitations. I had an amazing grandmother that was always there for me and two aunts that would have gladly helped me, but I didn't think I should talk to any of them about what was going on. I had always been the strong one in the family, always there for my mom and brothers - always taking care of their problems. So, through all of the confusion with my hormones and emotions, I felt I was had lost control of my life and that I couldn't burden anyone else with my own personal troubles. The one thing I could control was my weight.

In the eighth grade my weight was on average, 88-94 lbs. I would not let myself get over 94lbs. I dreamt of getting my weight down to 79lbs. Why 79? I don't know. It's the number that stuck in my head. And an eating disorder all starts from an obsession, so 79lbs was mine. I would skip meals at first or eat very little. I often just ate sugars like Sweet-tarts and Sprees because I knew they were quick digesting and gave me a little energy. By the end of 8th grade a teacher caught on that something was going on with me, they thought psychological, but never thought it was an eating disorder. I had gone through a lot in my life and dealt with things in my family that most people wouldn't have dreamt of or wished on their worst enemy. The school called my dad, but to be honest he only seemed concerned that the school called him and never addressed anything I was going through. So, the school asked me to start seeing a school counselor. She was a great listener. I continued to talk to her all through high school. I also met and exceeded my goal of 79lbs, and hit an all time low of 72lbs. That didn’t last too long, it wasn’t my natural weight and soon I was back up to the lower nineties.

By the time I was a sophomore in high school I knew about bulimia and started to purge. I wasn't a bing and purger... more of 'I won't eat much - just enough that nobody catches on... and then discretely go to the restroom afterwards and throw it up.' My stomach was a mess. If I didn't purge, my digestive system didn't know how to process food properly. So, I'd end up with diahrrea when I ate. Sometimes I would get so panicky over eating... like every bite I took I stressed over. My nerves would get so worked-up that I'd vomit without forcing myself to.

My senior year in high school I started to change. I was less focused on what I was or was not eating, and more on gym time. I ran regularly. I went to the gym twice a day (before and after school) most days that I wasn't working. I was obsessed with being thin, having a flat/muscular abs, and absolutely no jiggle... anywhere. That's a little hard for me... I'm well blessed w/ a 34C bust! They never went away through it all! Not sure how that works! But, okay - no complaints from me... doesn't every girl want to be skinny and big chested? ;-) Anyway, during this time I still monitored what I ate and limited myself to only what I needed. I assure you I was burning off all of the calories I ate while jogging miles upon miles on the treadmill. But, still I saw fat… something always jiggled. To me, I was never thin.

I left for the Air Force just over 2 weeks after High School graduation. I had been training for it - running a lot and eating healthier. I left for the Air Force weighing 95lbs. At the time, it was my highest weight. I had managed to put my eating disorders on a back burner and obsess over exceeding the male standards at boot camp. In the first week of basic training, the Air Force deemed me underweight! I had to gain 2 pounds during basic training or I would be kicked out at the end of the 6 weeks. They gave me special privileges like: getting to eat as much as I wanted. Nobody could make me leave the chow hall or deny me a piece of cake. It was a coveted privilege... but I didn't use it too often. I ate 3 square meals a day and Big Texas Cinnamon Rolls whenever we’d get a patio break. At the end of the 6 weeks when I was at my final weigh in... I had exceeded the 2 pounds... I gained 12 pounds and was 107 lbs. I left the weigh-in room in tears. I had never weighed so much in my life. At graduation, my family assured me that I looked better than ever. That would be the last time they'd see me that big until 2005 when I was pregnant. The next time they saw me was 12 weeks later, right after tech school ended and before I left for England. I was back down to a healthy 95lbs. I say healthy because I teetered between 95 and 98lbs. I wasn't going for 79, not even 89. I was okay at 95lbs. But, I knew if I went over 98 I would freak out.

Then, I met my very dear friend, Carolyn. I truly love her so much. But, we were not good for each other. Get 2 girls together that both struggle with eating disorders and have addictive personalities and you’ll end up with trouble and Jello diets! I clearly remember one day when we were on the phone. Just as casually as she said the sentence before, she said, “One sec. Tink, I need to throw-up…” Before she could finish the sentence she realized that there was a problem if she was comfortable enough to throw up while on the phone with me. That’s right, the we didn’t see any problem with her purging, but the problem was that we were too comfortable with it! I tried to be her friend when she admitted herself to an eating disorder clinic in D.C. But, truth be told, I was not the friend she needed during that time. I was stuck in my habits and she was trying to get help. I admitted this to her one day and apologized because I knew she needed to find a best friend that would be more supportive.

After I got out of the Air Force I had a lot going on. I travelled a lot to model and be with my boyfriend at the time. I was a full-time pre-med student that fall, until the big “separation anxiety” hit. So, as if I hadn’t already been skipping enough meals to maintain a figure fit for modeling, when I became so depressed I couldn’t get my butt off the couch, I ate little more than Fruit Rollups and meds. This only lasted until I found out I was pregnant.

Something clicked inside. I stopped living for myself and started living a healthy life to provide adequate nutrition to my baby. I gained 40 some pounds when I was pregnant. I was big… had kankles… and for the first time in my life, my thighs touched when I stood. It was new territory for me, but I felt more beautiful than ever! I even proudly sported a 2 piece swimsuit out at the lake less than a month before I had Calvin!

I quickly shed most of my baby weight. I was down to 114lbs within 2 weeks. I wasn’t eating much. I remember Aaron coming over with pizza for his daily visits with Calvin. He kept telling me that I HAD to eat. He was probably the only one that noticed that I wasn’t eating. One day he showed up and the first thing he said was, “Have you lost 10 pounds since yesterday?!?” He was serious. It was the best compliment anyone could have given me. At the time, I didn’t see anything wrong with eating nothing other than Hidden Valley Ranch potato chips and Coca Cola Zero. I was a new mom – a single mom at that. I didn’t have time to eat. When Calvin slept, I slept. When he was awake, I took care of him. I was not making time for myself. I didn’t purposely eat so little after I had Calvin. It’s not that I didn’t want to eat, I just wasn’t. I do believe that my subconscious, that apparently wants to starve itself, took over.

Calvin is 2 ½, now. I’m not down to my pre-prego weight of 95lbs. I am a solid 108lbs. I’m not proud of it. I do exercise from time to time. I go in spurts. Part of it is laziness. Part of it is because I’m married – and he married me looking like this! And the other part is because deep down I know that if I start obsessing over my weight again it could get out of control. I know I have an addictive personality and can be addicted to anything – and I did have a weight-loss addiction before. Eating disorders are a lot like alcoholism. It changes you for life. Every day is a battle and every meal is a choice I make. We don’t own a scale. We registered for them as wedding gifts. But, luckily we didn’t get one. There is a part of me, still stuck in the past with my habits, which longs for a scale so I can obsess over The Number. I find this inner self leading me to the scale aisles at stores. I am mesmerized by all of the new features on scales. But, I never buy one. I can’t. I cannot be the person I was before. I am trying to eat healthier. I would like to lose what’s left of my baby weight in my stomach. I will with time. I’m not going to stress over it.

One thing I do want to make mention of is that yes, I am fairly thin. I'm just a small person. If I don't eat a lot at one meal, don't make a big deal out of it. I'm a picky eater and also, I cannot eat a lot at one time. One thing small people absolutely hate is when people comment on the lack of food they ate. It makes the small person want to yell, "Leave me alone! You never blatantly pick on a big person for eating 3 plates full of food!" Also, coming from someone who has obsessed over what I have eaten for more than a decade, having someone point out what I ate or did not eat makes me self conscious and paranoid. If anything, it makes me so uneasy that I sometimes get sick over it.

THE END.

Anyway, like I said at the beginning of this very long post is that I’m not expecting sympathy. It is just my story about something that has consumed me for more than a decade. It feels good to get it all out there. Somewhat therapeutic. Someday I'd like to write a memoir of what I've been through in life. I'm not sure if anyone would read it. But, it would be my story. The one where I wouldn't have to shield other's feelings - I could be honest about things that have happened... someday...

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

The Baby That Is My Calvin

Tidbits and stories about my sweet child, Calvin.

Calvin is 2.
His Birthday is in August and I've already started plans for the big 3rd Birthday party!

He can be shy at first, especially in big crowds.
But, bring a puppy on a walk or to the park, and he will instantly be your best friend.

He likes it when I bring him fruitsnacks and a drink to the bathtub... that's 1st class service!
Every once in awhile he'll bring me some when I'm in the shower!

He love love loves having his picture taken! Immediately he'll say, "Me see it!"
Why in the world he cried when we got the grandkids together for a picture is beyond me!

"Mom, what's this?" As he points to his nipple today in the shower. Ummm... Ummm... what to say... whats pc? So, after stalling for a few seconds I told him the truth, "It's a polka dot!"
I'm just not ready for him to know the names of real body parts. We refer to his penis as an Alligator!

Calvin likes to repeat what I say, immediately after I say it. Picture this: Last Friday night we were at the McDonald's drive-thru. I ordered... but I'm sure the lady heard something to the effect of: "One 6 piece Chicken CHICKEN McNugget McNuggets, Mom? Yes, Calvin - shush! Okay... Mighty Kids Meal. My Happy Meal!!! Don't eat my Happy Meal! CALVIN - seriously, shush! Okay... with a Hi-C. My soda with MY Happy Meal! Don't eat it! CALVIN - be quiet now, or you're not getting a Happy Meal!..." It continued as I ordered my part of the meal - a Double Cheeseburger Mighty Kids Meal. I seriously glared at Calvin and told him if my sandwich ended up having onions on it I was going to be furious with him for messing up the order. :-)

He was born at just 5lbs 15oz. By far the cutes baby I've ever seen in my life. He was welcomed into this world by my best friend, Tiffany, in his face with a camera in the operating room seconds after he was born!

Calvin told me today that there is a crocodile in Mattis Lake (that we walked around today) and that the crocodile is eating all of the turtles.
Okay, then - sure. Whatever you say, sweetie

He loves all things cheese! Cheese dip, crackers, sandwiches... whatever. Often, he adds it to his own concoctions. Last night he made a cheese & pickle sandwich on bread. This reminded me of the time I watched his Aunt Elizabeth eat a pickle with Ketchup on it after we got back from a bar.

Everything is, "Me do it! Mom, ME do it! Don't help me!" So I don't. I wait for him to ask... and I smile on the inside when he asks because it reminds me that he's still a baby and needs me.

Calvin was baptized when he was 2 weeks old so his father could be there before he went back to Iraq. His Godparents are like Super-Godparents. They shower him with gifts for every holiday! My sister is his Godmother - she takes her role as ultimate gift-giver seriously. Calvin adores her! And his Godfather has a habit of giving Calvin cash everytime he sees him. How lucky, right?!?

He'll do anything to help anyone. All I have to do is ask and he will help cook dinner, bake cookies, get Chris a beer... etc. etc etc. :-)

Calvin loves sports - like playing t-ball or golf. But most of all he loves SOCCER! The soccer shirts get worn more than any other shirts in his closet.
Summer is coming... he's going to need short-sleeve soccer shirts!

Speaking of his clothes... he has a crap load of clothes. And, rarely will I let people (other than his daycare) see him in the same outfit more than once. I'm weird about that.

This morning, Calvin came to the living room crying after he woke-up. He asked, "Where's Dad?" I exlained Dad was at work. He said, "WHY? I want to play with him!" Then he crawled up on my lap and seriously cried big alligator tears for 5 minutes!

Calvn loves loves loves when he gets something new. I'll let him open the bag/box/package and he will cup his hands over his mouth and gasp in a whispery voice, "Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!" That reaction makes the gift so very worth any amount of money. Just last weekend he got new pj's. By his reaction you'd have thought we got him a bicycle!

Chris works at a car dealership. There's a different dealership up here - The O'Brien Autopark. They have a cute jingle. At first Iwould sing the jingle because it was catchy. Then, Calvin caught on and we both sang it. That started to annoy Chris. Now, Calvin loves the jingle and will bust out in tune at random times... Chris just rolls his eyes.

He insists that we read to him before he goes to sleep. Lately it has been primarily Shel Silverstein poems. He loves them.

His Great-Aunt Dana gave him a monkey photo album for his 2nd Christmas. I filled it with pictures of him with different family members. He sifts through it regularly, talking about all of the pictures and the people he loves so much. It may just be his favorite book.

He is slightly anal-retentive... like obsessive compulsive about some things. He likes all of the doors to be shut. He can't stand to get so much as a drop of water on his pants or shirt - if he does, he will insist on changing his clothes and often tell me I need to was these "dirty" clothes NOW. We're hoping this doesn't grow into something like him having to flip on the light switch 19 times while putting his tongue on the roof of his mouth and then clapping 3 times before entering a room!

Calvin seriously has a BUNCH of grandparents. He loves all of them VERY much! Let's add them up:
Great-Great Grandparents: 2
Great Grandparents: 13
Grandparents: 8
TOTAL: 23 Grandparents! That's a lot! Lucky little boy!

He still insists that he has a Baby Sister. Our neighbors downstairs just had a baby... he thought the baby was his baby sister. And when I tell him not to jump because the baby downstairs might be sleeping he will get very quiet and tiptoe... and whisper, "Don't wake-up my baby sister!"

Calvin's learning his ABC's. It goes something like "A,B,C,D,F,G... know my ABC's. Sing with me!" I'll have to get it on video.

He has a few variations of running. Sometimes he runs with a high step. Other times, he runs wiggling his behind. And yet other times he can run at lightning fast speeds like an Olympic Gold Medalist!

video

Calvin is oh so very precious to me.
He is the reason for getting out of bed on a dreary day.
He's the source of all hope, even when the odds are against us.
And, he is the beginning of life as I know it.

I can't imagine a greater joy than the love of a child.
I hope each of you either have, are, or will experience this uncomparable love.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

You Tube...




I don't care who you are voting for, you have to admit this little is cute! :-)





These are the McCain girls... I thought the video was so funny - who does this stuff?!? You know I love the McCainster, but these women probably aren't helping the campaign much with their You Tube video! I'm gonna have to put a video together and post it on You Tube in support of John McCain. :-) `

Announcing a BIG NEW Invention!

I want to be the 1st to announce a new invention to my readers! I'd announce it to the world, but then I guess I'd be stealing the show! ~Anyway~ TOMORROW morning, my cousin, Ryan Jansen (of Becky & Roy Jansen in T-Town and fiance to the beautiful Holly McMahon of T-Town) will be on ABC's Good Morning America in New York City!!!
WHY, you might be asking...
He invented a Rake n Take device that rakes leaves and scoops them up. I'm sure he would describe it in more detail. But, that's the jist of the invention. He was invited to NYC and even has companies interested in the product!

I'm super proud of Ryan! I hope he hits the jackpot with this design!



Sunday, April 6, 2008

So Stinkn' Funny

video

Calvin really made me and Chris smile with his impersonation of a cat washing itself. :-)
We hope it makes you smile & laugh, too.
Sound makes it very cute!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Thursday Ramblings

This morning when Calvin and I got to his school we were overwhelmed by the screaming/yelling/whining child in the back of the room (who was sitting in a wagon because the teachers say he cries the least in the wagon). We feel bad for him because he is new and is having a hard time adjusting to Chesterbrook Academy. But, Calvin is having a hard time understanding why this boy is upset all of the time. I've tried to convince him to hang out w/ this little boy and be his friend because maybe that will cheer him up. But, Calvin insists that he doesn't want to. So, I have been urging him to stick close to Maddox (b.f.). Well, this morning Maddox wasn't at school. His mom is one of Calvin's teachers and she said Maddox was at home w/ his grandma and grandpa. Calvin looked at me and said, "I go to my Mama Betty's, too!" Not only was Calvin missing his best friend, but now he thought that Maddox was hanging out at Grandma Betty's. I knew then that it might be a rough day for him.

When I got to school this afternoon to pick him up, the new little boy was still crying/screaming/whining and some of the other kids were starting to do the same. 2 year olds just don't understand when someone else is upset. Calvin gave me a look like, "Thank-you soooo much for saving me from this nut house! I hope you brought some Flintstone's to cure the massive headache I have!" There were even a couple other kiddos that grabbed their jackets and wanted to go home with us. It was seriously that bad!
Right after Calvin and I walked out into the hallway, we saw a man out there looking into Calvin's classroom. He didn't look familiar, but I was sure he was someone's dad. I said, "Man, it's loud in there! I'd go crazy!" I half laughed as I was joking with the gentleman but he didn't seem so enthused with my humor. A few minutes later after I got Calvin strapped in his carseat and we were about to leave the parking lot, I saw that same man walk out of the school... holding the hand of the little boy that cried/screamed/whined all day. I was somewhat embarrassed by my comments. Insert foot in mouth!

We got in the car and Calvin asked if he could get a Happy Meal.
I tried to think of a good reason why he couldn't.
I came up with, "I don't have any money? Do you?"
He replied, "No."
Then a couple seconds later he added, "Aunt Dawn has money! She will buy me a Happy Meal!"
I nodded my head and agreed that if Aunt Dawn were there she surely would buy him a Happy Meal. She misses Calvin... and apparently Calvin misses her, too.

Andrew Dale

Great-big CONGRATULATIONS to
Jon & Carla Will
on their bouncing baby boy,
Andrew Dale!

Although little Andrew was born at just 32 weeks, he is doing great! He is eating well and expected to gain much weight in the next few days.
Mom, Dad, and the grandparents couldn't be prouder!
Although he is proving to be a strong little Will, let's all keep little Andrew in our prayers.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Insomnia

For some reason I haven't been able to sleep much/well the past week or so. I'm not sure what the problem is. Anyway, after Calvin then Chris go to sleep I get bored. Done a lot of internet surfing and watching reruns of SATC, Seinfeld, and Everybody Loves Raymond to pass the time away.
Tonight I got on this Quiz Gaaxy site. Here are some results of quizes I took.







Christina Ordner successfully averted WW3 with some covert operation that is top secret.
... afterward, Christina Ordner became an ideal and disappeared.
'How will you be remembered in history books?' at QuizGalaxy.com












Christina Ordner's Past Lives










V V V
58 BC: Egyptian Slave
693 AD: A soldier
1778 AD: A heretic executed for claiming that the earth was round
'What were you in your past lives?' at QuizGalaxy.com


QuizGalaxy.com
You have an 90% chance of surviving a zombie attack.
'Would you survive a Zombie Attack?'
at QuizGalaxy.com











Yarrrgh!
Your Pirate Name be ...
May Siren
You are the most intelligent of all pirates. Although your name is feared, you live a relatively normal life and let your lackeys to all the work for you. You know how to never be caught and live the life of luxury.

'What is your Pirate Name?' at QuizGalaxy.com







You are Carrie Bradshaw Barbie!
You love your shoes, and have friends that would kill for you. You are quirky and adorable and everyone loves you.
'Which Barbie are You?' at QuizGalaxy.com











Christina Renae Ordner
"Despite all logic, bees are not spicy"
'What is your personal life motto?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Me Defined In The Dictionary





Christina Renae Ordner --
[adjective]:

Tastes like fried chicken
'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com




I just don't know how to take this... fried chicken? Really?!? I thought if I tasted like something it would be sugar from all the sweet tea I drink and candy I love! Man... this is really how I'd be defined in the dictionary??? Yikes.

So, let's try it w/ my maiden name and see if it is better... :-)





Christina Renae Goeckner --
[adjective]:

Banshee-like
'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com




I don't really know what "banshee-like" means, but it doesn't sound much better than "tastes like fried chicken"!



Something for you to think about...

PARK




















Favorite pics from our trip to the park this afternoon. :-)

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Big Research Paper


For my Eng. 102 class I am doing a 10-12 page research paper on positive disciplinary methods and how parent education has changed over the past 30 years. Basically, the jist is that parents today have an abundance of educational resources to provide alternative methods to disciplining their children than only spanking or beating their kids. Child abuse can be a cycle and today's parents know that they can stop it. We don't have to be just like our parents or their parents (not that they were bad parents). We have options. I think today's generation of new parents are more aware of the psychological aspect of parenting.

By no means am I saying that I don't believe in spanking at all. There's a time and a place for it.
I'm a member of Cafe Mom and the Champaign Area Recreation for Everyone (C.A.R.E.) that provide input on their parenting methods, give me ideas, and listen when I have questions. Heck, other blogs I read give me ideas for Calvin and the best ways to direct him. Thank-you Bloggers!

I need some input... where do you get guidance for raising your child/children? What methods do you use? Any advice?

David Letterman


John McCain will be on the David Letterman show TONIGHT!