Saturday, September 29, 2007

Cooper John

First, I want to apologize for not getting this posted sooner. *** Monday we welcomed baby Cooper John to the world. I am a very proud new aunt. Calvin was also very excited to see "Pooper" as he calls him. I will have pictures on here soon. Congratulations to Jami Patton and Brother Jake! :-)

Sunday, September 23, 2007

The War

Friday morning at the end of the Today Show on NBC, they aired a preview for the mini series, The War. The music to go along with the preview was Norah Jones singing American Anthem, a beautiful and touching song that brought me to tears. Republican, Democrat, Black, or white - this song is for anyone. Everyone can relate to it in one way or another. For me, it was the current war we are in and the time I was deployed and the other years I was in the Air Force. It brought back lots of memories of my time serving our country, the people I met along the way, and the shock of September 11th when I saw it on t.v in my dorm room at RAF Mildenhall, U.K. I remember the immediate panic that overwhelmed me, but somehow I immediately made my way to the DSN phone outside my doorm room to call my NCOIC. At that time, nobody was 100% sure what had happened or what would happen next. So, after it was confirmed, I was called back and told when and where I needed to be that night. Carolyn was in my dorm room as I got my gear together. The base was on lockdown, so she couldn't even leave to go home. There was panic, tears, and anger across the base. I couldn't call my parents to tell them I was safe and they couldn't call me because the phone lines were over-worked and busy. A month and a half later I was allowed to go home for my cousin Dustin's wedding. I took a C-17 from England to the East Coast. When we landed, we were told that we needed to contact our squadrons for further instructions because during the time of our flight, the U.S. had started bombing Afghanistan. Luckily, I was still allowed to go home for a few days for the wedding. The time home was hard. I felt guilty for being away from my comrads during such an important time. But, at the same time I felt very fortunate for the time I got to spend with my family because this was a time of uncertainty. I didn't know where I would go next, and when I'd get to see my family again. In a way, after I returned to RAF Mildenhall, as time passed it seemed that we became slightly complacent about the war. It wasn't until I was deployed to Al-Udeid AB when I heard over the loud speaker that we had captured Saddam Hussein did I remember that we are at war and we all should be a little scared.
So, as I watched the video footage from The War on the Today show, I was humbled. I cried as it showed men fighting in WWII, the war that will forever be referred to as The War. It was real life people fighting, dying, making the ultimate sacrifice for our country. My heart couldn't help but break for the women and children left behind as these brave men fought so bravely and for the family of those who never returned home. The War's 7 part series starts tonight on PBS. Check your local listings for times. I know we will be glued to the television for it. As for the song, American Anthem, I encourage you to listen to it when you have time to reflect on your own life.,,4415952,00.html

"America, America. I gave my best to you."

Date Night

It had been a couple months since Chris and I had a date night. Since Calvin went to his dad's yesterday for the night, we decided to make the most out of our evening... well afternoon/evening/night. We headed to Champaign for some much needed shopping... I need it like air somedays... hehehe. Two determined people shopping and we got some much needed things for the wedding: guest book & pen, ribbon for bouquets, my shoes, and Chris's wedding band. Then, we went to Outback for dinner and I had a couple Wallaby-darnedes - - - mmmm... delicious. Of course I insisted we had to go to Target bc I just can't go to Champaign without going to Target. :-) Then, we headed home. I know it probably doesn't sound like much of a date night. But, we had a really good time together. It was very refreshing to look at wedding bands for him. It reminded me that we are getting married... not just having a wedding. It was so nice to spend the afternoon with Chris and enjoy each other - no wedding planning, no searching for jobs, no homework - - - just me and him. :-)
I think we were both ready to see Calvin when he got home at noon today. But, the break was nice.

T-Shirt on Friday

Yes... you didn't misread my T-shirt on Friday... it said, "Future Trophy Wife". I think it's hilarious!!!

Friday, September 21, 2007

*Goddess of the hair clippers*

Okay... so maybe I'm not actually the Goddess of the hair clippers... but I stand firm that I am the goddess of something. I'll let you know if I figure out of what. :-)
Last night, I cut Calvin's hair for the 2nd time... my first time was last week and I noticed I missed a few spots. So, I borrowed dad's hair clippers to give him an all over trim. Overall, I think Calvin's hair turned out fabulous last night. But let's face it... I don't think a bad hair cut could make Calvin "uncute".
Then, I got a wild hair up my butt and decided to cut Chris's hair, too!!! hahahahaha... (evil laugh). He was a little skeptical at first. I gave him a guilt trip and then he seemed all for me cutting his hair. It took me almost an hour... I was very nervous. I didn't want my future Trophy Husband to get a bad haircut! In the end... I think I did a pretty good job. Blending the different lengths is a bit tricky but I think I'll do better next time. For my first time... I think I blended it pretty well. Normally, his mom, Susan, cuts his hair - and does a stellar job. But, I gotta tell ya... I kind of enjoyed cutting his hair and am probably going to continue doing it. Next time... I might get crazy w/ his hair! Watch out, Chris... I'm a crazy woman w/ hair clippers!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Big moments

Last week Calvin jumped in time from an infant that I nurtured to a toddler that knows important things. Let me explain... we were on our way home and it was almost dusk when he very matter of factly pointed out the car window and said, "Moon." He repeated it several times on the rest of the drive home and made a game out of the moon disappearing behind the trees. All the while, I cried. When did my little boy grow up and know what the moon is? What comes next? Will it seem like mere minutes before I am giving him the birds and the bees talk? I am just not ready for him to grow up. It seems like the past two years have flown by. And there is nothing I can do to slow down time. So, I am going to make a huge effort to enjoy my time with him before he gets older and doesn't want to hang out with me anymore.
I love his morning breath. There's something sweet and innocent about how he smells in the morning. I wish I could bottle it up and save it.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Poor Calvin...

Poor little Calvin... all but 1 fish have died out of a total of at least 15 since August 11th. I'm not buying more until this last one dies, we clean the tank again and let it sit for a week. And if losing all of his fish isn't bad enough... Marvin is gone. Poor Calvin...

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

"Dead fish"

4 out of Calvin's 6 fish died over the past few days. Chris always tried to sneak into Calvin's room to dispose of each dead fish without Calvin knowing about it. However, Saturday night while hanging out w/ my sister by the fish tank he very matter of factly said, "Dead fish." She of course rushed into tell me. It's like I didn't know what to do. I wasn't ready for him to experience the death of something. I overreacted because he was very calm. Yesterday morning there was another dead fish in the tank so Chris dumped out all the water, cleaned the tank, and put a new filter in before putting our last 2 fish back in. 1 of the remaining fish didn't look so good and it appeared that it was dead this morning. So, I told Calvin we'd go get new fish today. He picked out an orange and a black fish. The lady at the pet shop said these were more stable fish than we had before. I came home and moved the stump that I thought the dead fish was in and I kid you not, it swam away. He's a little slow, still but I think he's going to make it. :-)
Chris and I have our suspicions that the fish died of an overdose of dried apple-cinnamon crisps that Calvin and Daelyn thought the fish wanted the other night. These two are extremely thoughtful and wanted to share the snack. I've tried explaining that there is fish food and there is human food and we don't eat each other's food. :-)

Sunday, September 2, 2007


After almost finishing 3 pieces of pizza tonight at dinner, Calvin was finally finished. For a 2 year old I thought this was a lot of food! :-) After wiping his hands and face off he grabbed his plate and insisted that we take the couple bites left to Marvin, the dog. I was really proud of his considerate gesture.

I got my dress!

For those of you that don't read my wedding blog... I GOT MY DRESS yesterday!!! Mom and I went to Litchfield to a 1/2 off sale. As soon as I tried on this dress I knew I loved it. We couldn't beat the price, either. Thank-you, Mom for the gorgeous wedding dress!!!

Moving past the stupidness

Last post about the public aid thing...
Okay, here's the thing. I apologize if I offended anyone by using the term "white trash". I truly did not mean to upset anyone with that term. It's just that I've seen people that refuse to get jobs and have more babies to collect money off the government and live in government housing for free and reap all the benefits that our government has. It bothers me that the system allows those individuals that are fully capable of working a job or going to college financial freedom. It's not fair to the tax payers. I have clearly stated my situation. I didn't want to use Kid Care for the simple fact that I always believe that those benefits are there for other people that need it more. But, after thinking long and hard about it I realized that I wasn't being fair to myself to say that I shouldn't get this benefit. I have gone to this specific public aid office before to get some guidance on different things without ever asking for a penny and still been treated like I wasn't deserving enough of help. This particular man that worked the front desk at the public aid office has a known reputation and has been rude to me before. I understand that people have bad days and often it can reflect in their work. However, I work in the customer service industry and would not have a job if I treated our customers the way that the man at the public aid office treated me and the elderly man infront of me in line.
I am a great debater... however, I cannot be bothered with continuing to defend myself about the public aid incident. I am over it. Let's face it... I have enough going on right now that I don't really have the time to be angry anymore. :-)

*** Shout out to Dawn... Thank-you!***

Calendar Found!

My calendar/planner has been found. :-) I am happy.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Are you kidding me?

I am going to start out by requesting you read what an anonymous person wrote as a comment to my post about how upsetting it was when I went to the public aid office. This is what the commenter wrote: "Wow. What a sad story you have told about your FREE "insurance" for your child. Call it what it is. Medicaid. Seriously, maybe instead of quitting a perfectly good job that had insurance, you should have waited till you got your life together enough to afford to care for your child instead of expecting taxpayers such as myself to do so. I'm sure the gentleman DOES get frustrated with ladies such as yourself who take advantage of programs like this. I can't believe you had the nerve to post this. let alone expect sympathy form the rest of us who are footing the bill."
Let me just tell you something you arrogant piece of shit... I don't care who you are or where you get off telling me that I don't deserve to get assistance for insurance for my child. You don't have a FREAKING clue! I bet you're a regular civilian that has never served our country... like I have. I bet you've never been deployed to a foreign country to fight for our country... like I have. I shouldn't have to defend myself to you... but I am going to put this out there for everyone that reads this so EVERYONE is clear on the situation. I would hate to lose readers because they think I'm taking advantage of the system.
I am a 25 year old veteran of the USAF. I served our country for 4 years both stateside and overseas and deployed to the middle east. I am extremely proud of my military accomplishments... as I should be. And, I do not need for ANYONE to ever question what I have done for our country and what I deserve back. The men and women that serve our country deserve everything the country can give them to repay them for their sacrifices. I am also a single mother of a beautiful 2 year old boy. He is the absolute best thing that has ever happened to me. I worked full time the first 2 years of his life and finally feel that I am in a good place to go back to college to get a higher education. I am trying to make choices that will make a positive impact on the rest of our lives. I definitely do not think I am taking advantage of any system by getting my son insurance through the state that I pay for (IT'S NOT FREE! AND I PAY TAXES!) so I can use my Veteran benefits to go to school. The Montgomery G.I. Bill is a benefit that I earned and deserve to be able to use. I am extremely independant woman and have proven that I can do it all: be a full time mother, work part-time, go to college full-time, and find love and plan a wedding with my fiance`. I want to point out a couple things like, I have raised my son and have not depended on my family to raise him for me, I am not applying for anything other than insurance, and I definitely strive to make sure that I am not taking advantage of the system in any way, shape, or form, also during my pregnancy and the first two years of his life I never even considered allowing the state to help me financially - and I'm sure there were times when I would have qualified!
To the commenter, who are you to say that I should have gotten my life in order first... wow... I've probably done more in my life than you'll ever dream of doing in your pathetic life so I'd appreciate it if you'd NEVER post a comment to my blogspot again. Your input just isn't welcome. Also, I really hope that this commenter can find piece in his or her's own life and try not to scrutinize other's and pass unfair judgment on other people's lives. You are a very sad person to ever say that I am taking advantage of any system... to be honest, people like me that work very hard and need just a little assistance while trying to better themselves should be exactly what the system is all about.
I sincerely hope that I never meet the person that wrote this comment because I would have sooo much more to say to him or her!